Love knows a cruel bastard when it sees one

If I never felt compassionate
My reason would be stone.
I would follow directions dutifully
And my bullets would just go.

If my intellect ruled these tears
My emotions would lose their flame
And on no street would wander
My guilt, sorrow, vice, or shame.

If my screams were to never start
Nor vibrate through my tongue,
My legs would never buckle
And I’d march into the gun.

If my intellect ruled my fears
I’d not care I was un-whole
And stare blankly down inside the void
That was my lunatic of a soul.

If all I had was what I knew
My love would cease to give
And my love you would be frozen
With the pain I would have lived.

Untold Stories

Say what’s on my mind you ask,
And I would say it just it’s in the past.

This heart is in the past, eyes unfaithful.
These fingers lack trust, their memories full of unshared sharing.

I see in your eyes uncertainty,
But let me be frank and just hug you.

Just to feel you near and remember...
Any words will disrupt this moment, make it untrue.

Let time unravel all my eyes as you read along:
The heartache we fear, the love, and how I cannot lose you twice.

Here's to letting go

Don’t look back and wonder why
The road ahead was paved...
In goodbye
The heart you shed may have caused you pain
But you didn’t need it any way
So look ahead and don’t be shy
Life’s too short to wonder why

Song of the Flock ~ Natives

Beneath the shredded mountain
One thousand shadows

I want to be one of them
Welcomed to the threatened flock

I bring humbleness to your soil
I ask you

Brush me into where I feel you
Without hope to follow the endless truths that lead me here

I only knew you as your solemn you
I only saw you through my mind

Read your words through the filter of time
One thousand feathers fastened to your flock

I cannot feel your pain
It was so long ago

But I feel the earth you felt
I listen to your songs

Assumptions dwindle in your absence
The man we never knew tells our story

I am like that man
Clumsy in words and ways

Here I am sheltered by the mountain shadows
Same as you

The breath is gone
there is no road
the light I saw
was a hoax

you you you
I love you
truly this time
in this room
a loyal
breath of fresh air

I felt I was
your air
but I never had
considered
myself your spare

the reality
was there
she was there
he was there
to deter
my despair

but

when i hold
the raw
untamed
for what it was
it was
you
rejecting me

and here
my impatience
moved on
my heart said
stay for one more moment
he will change his mind

at the least
no surprise
from where
came my pain

and somehow
I love him enough to hope
he found what truly fulfills him

at least this time
I kept quiet
rested my heart
so that his heart could search for her
without my interruption
there is always a bright side
a reality
to every pain

All That Follows You

What is it,
To miss you when your song is through?

I pick up your lyrics,
Read the words,
But it’s just not the same without you.

I’ll sing a few lines,
Hum a few bars,
But I’ll never feel you in this song.

What is it,
To miss you when you’re gone?

Somehow I thought we would all come back together

And talk about how our lives had come along

Somehow I thought we’d see each other

But now the best of us are gone

The best of us are gone

It’s a sad day

A sad day

A sad day

Sad day

Sad day